Some feelings don’t need fixing.
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Not everything here is fixable.
Some of it is just true.
Stretched to breaking.
Still not gone.
The slow refusal to go out.
Even now.
The fade between belief
and exhaustion.
What remains owed
to what already left.
Still holding.
Just not fully.
Still here.
Just not fully receiving.
Present on the outside.
Gone somewhere quieter.
Moving forward
without feeling it.
Not gone.
Just less.
There.
But not available.
Something still moving
with nothing inside it.
Alive.
But not responsive.
Staying in place
without being in it.
What remains owed
to what already left.
You stayed.
But you weren’t there.
The gradual loss
of who you were
without noticing when it started.
When your identity stops feeling like yours
and becomes something you answer to
out of habit.
A slow change in who you are
until you no longer recognise the outline.
Fragments of who you used to be
still showing up
without belonging to you anymore.
Functioning on the outside
with nothing stable underneath it.
Looking at yourself
and feeling interference
instead of recognition.
When your sense of self softens
until it’s hard to tell where you begin.
Something inside doesn’t sit right anymore
but you can’t adjust it back.
Still physically present
but slowly removing yourself
from everything else.
The distance between who you are
and who you think you should be
growing wider over time.
When sounds, lights, or people
feel like too much.
When you can’t focus
because everything feels broken up.
When your brain feels full
and can’t take in anything else.
The moment you stop
and start again.
Taking a break
before things get too big.